BIGMANSCO

It's been a real long time since I was here, but so much in life hit me at one time, that I got lost with job assessments, and upgrading to tablets and smartphones, classes, and I'm still struggling to sort things out.  One thing is for sure, not focusing on drawing for years has made me feel very dull.  


I miss doing fan art and keeping up with the fan art community, particularly the Resident Evil fan art community.  Life is rough, but it is what it is.  I don't know when I'll draw again, but I really want to catch up on what friends have done lately on this site.  I hope I get to do some pieces in the future, and I hope all of those I know are doing fine and well.

Well I just got tired of seeing my old journal entry of unmotivated, when clearly I'm on more of a role than I have been in a while.  Seriously, I completed more joints this year than the last 2 years together.  

Gotta say, it's still rough.  After all that long layoff, I almost forgot how to draw in my favorite style, but I believe I'm working through the rust and getting back to my comfort zone.  Although it feels like DA aint what it used to be, such as not seeing as much hand drawn joints that I used to see 3 years ago and some friends ain't around like they once were, I still love this site, because it allowed me to connect with alot of great people and artist.

I believe it's safe for me to say that I'm officially back.  Got on the right regiment, and my mind and motivation are clearly there, I just had to wait after 7 joints were done to see if I was truly back and not pull another dissapearing act.  So hopefully I'll have my best year since 2010, and for all those artist who are still putting out those hand drawn joints, keep up the good work and I'll keep checkin' em out.  And for those who feel like they lost their touch at drawing, if I found my touch, I know for sure you'll find yours, so keep on hanging in there.  

PEACE.

It's been a while since I wrote a journal entry, and man, all I can say is, I am just out of it.  The usual joy of drawing isn't there, and I've been in a depression since that motivation isn't there.  I mean it's like I draw, but the motivation to finish it up isn't there.  Man the last time I was on a drawing roll, I thought, I'm ok, but man, depression is a real bitch. I hate it when I'm not drawing, because I'm not regularly on this site, looking at good artwork, and commenting on friends' stuff, and not posting anything up.  Without drawing in my life, it's like losing my recreational time, I don't even enjoy playing video games as much without drawing, so this just sucks.  Something tells me, maybe I'm burnt out, but something else tells me, maybe I just need to get 1 thing done, and maybe I'll be ok again.  But I hope in short time, I'll be able to be posting back on deviantart and continuing to view good joints y'all done.  Peace.

I've been in a depressive slump for a bit, and now I'm just gettin unstuck, and in order to remain unstuck, I just gotta keep it moving.  Unfortunatley, I'm gonna have to put requests and what not on the backburner, and just draw what I feel like to enjoy doing what I love to do draw.  Just thought I'd let that be known, and thanks a mill for those who commented on my joints and the many faves on my joints.  Very appriciated.  All is blessed.  BIGZ.

First thing I wanna say is, I brought this on myself, I let so much drawings pile up, that while I'm trying to work on them, I'm thinking of something else to draw and I just sit and think most of the time instead of actual drawing.  So my mind feels like it's stuck in a dump.  

So there's only one thing for me to do now, everything that's in blueprint form will remain that way, and everything I put up from now on will be completed joints only, cuz I got so many requests I put on the backburner and contest entries I have put on the back burner, and now that all those joints are catching up, and it's really slowing me down putting a halt on my drawing, I feel like I just gotta cut joints loose and keep it moving.  

For those who have requests and awaited colored joints, and contests joints I promised to finish I apologize, this won't happen again in the future.  I just really need to get myself going.  

Bless.